Not a New Year’s Resolution
It’s the beginning of the year, as you well know. In my opinion this is as good a time as any to reflect on my life and where it’s headed, probably because I have way less going on in the winter. The annual influx of new year’s resolutions posts proves I’m not alone.
That’s not really what this is.
Maybe you noticed – or maybe you didn’t – that I’ve been a little bit silent here and on social media lately. Not because I don’t enjoy what I’m doing here – exactly the opposite, in fact. Over the past few months my priority has been getting my life more in order, and that effort is starting to pay off. What I usually write on here might give you the impression that my life is 100% lipstick and travel but believe me, that’s not so. Here’s a little glimpse into what’s been going on, and what’s coming up.
I think I’m one of those adults who can never decide what they want to do when they grow up. My career path so far has followed a pretty standard progression. Student jobs, entry level tech support, management, added responsibilities, etc. Part of me feels like I should be satisfied with that, but the fact is what I’m doing right now isn’t necessarily what I love. In fact, this blog is what made me realize that. I want to create. I want to engage with people. And most of all, I don’t want to spend the rest of my life doing basically the same thing every day.
While I was doing my soul-searching about what I do want to do, I kept coming back to one thing I really enjoy – blogging. I know I haven’t always been incredibly consistent, but you guys, I’ve been doing this for nearly six years. My family and friends could tell you all about how quickly I take up new hobbies and then move past them. This is different. I’ve been thinking of ways I can translate it into an actual career, but the fact is blogging (or being an ~influencer~) is an incredibly oversaturated field with no job security whatsoever. Also no health plan.
If you’re afraid I’m abandoning my site, don’t worry – I’m not. But I am looking to branch out. Last fall I dusted off my ‘student’ hat and started college (again). I’m now a proud member of an integrated strategic communications program that bundles up the creative and administrative aspects of advertising, marketing and PR communication. It’ll be a few years until I finish and I’m not exactly sure where it will take me. I think I’m on the right track though, because I actually look forward to going to my classes. Even the one at 8AM.
This time of year is so inundated with posts about weight loss that I hate to even mention it. But the fact remains that it’s something I need to focus on in order to live my best life, so there you go. I’m not sure what led up to it, but last fall I had a routine doctor’s appointment and learned that I weighed the absolute most I ever have in my life. Not entirely sure what led up to that, but I’m guessing it was a one-two punch of medications that affected my appetite and my undying love of peanut butter cookies. More seriously, I have a tendency to use food as a coping mechanism – for stress, for anxiety, for boredom… you get the idea.
I’m a very firm believe in loving your body not for how it looks, but for the things it can do. Difficulty: I can no longer escape the truth that my body can’t do the things I want it to anymore, at least not how it is. Yes, my vanity has been slightly wounded as my weight’s crept up over the past two years but other things are more important. I’m tired of getting winded going up the stairs. I want to go for a run without my feet and knees aching for days afterward. I want to wear my wedding rings again.
As much as I’d like to blame my cookie problem, I know it’s largely my choices that have led up to my current lack of fitness. Lucky for me, that means I have the opportunity to turn that around. I’m happy with the progress I’ve made over the past couple months, but it’s an ongoing journey for sure.
Another thing I did last fall was create a 40 Before 40 bucket list – remember that? Not that I’ll be all bent out of shape if I don’t actually do it all in the next five years. It’s nice as a little nudge to remind me to do things I enjoy though. There are two main things I’m focusing on right now: learning a foreign language, and dance lessons.
I took a couple semesters of Italian years ago for fun, and it just so happens that my new major requires four semesters of a foreign language. That was a little kick in the butt to pick it up again, and I’m super glad. The class I’m taking now is the last one that’s technically required, but I may end up doing others depending on what else is going on in my life. Going to Italy is also on my bucket list, so I want to be good and prepared when I get there.
As for dancing, there’s a really fun speakeasy in New York called the Back Room that we’ve been to a few times. They have a live band on Mondays, and I want so bad to join in with the other people swing dancing. To that end, Joseph and I (along with our friends Kara and Andy) took a short course of swing lessons at the end of last year. I definitely need to be better at it before I’m comfortable dancing in public, so we just started up again with it this year. It’s a ton of fun, and I also get to count it as exercise!
But enough about me – what about you? I’d love to hear about your goals (New Year resolutions or not) in the comments.